Blah 出糧 Blah Lifted

FishLamb is lifted; hallelujah!

以為公司走左我份糧, 點知剛剛好, 今日出糧!! =)
好耐無試過出糧的興奮感覺了, 真好.
雖然之前都收過EI, 但始終唔及得到番工賺番嚟嘅錢興奮呢! (原來我無自己想像中咁好食懶飛...)嘩, 原來Canada Safeway 由1929 年已經開始有架喇!
咁咪就嚟80 週年? 嘩... 咁都算勁啦!

偶然的機會之下, 今日突然讓我有機會同公司個IT Supervisor 接洽, 幾個emails 往返之後, 佢幫我搞掂左我個mailbox, 終於可以收到外來的emails 喇!!
Treat of the Week!!
Bother 左我成兩個禮拜的難題, 其實可以好快就搞掂! 仲俾之前helpdesk 個人呃左我添! :p

本週的轉捩點 - Journey Fellowship...
頹了好幾日, 很頹的番到團契當中. Well, actually 臨出門口又再加多樣野煩, 勁想鬧人... =/
原來今晚的"Journey with God" 係邀請左幾位弟兄姊妹分享過往去短宣的經歷(Journey 團也真的人才濟濟啊!!).
聽著聽著, 心裡很感動.
之前幾日我的思想一直被困在某個框框裡, 不能釋放出來, 思緒不斷被纏繞, 不能自制.
週會當中, 我一邊在聽, 一邊在暗自禱告; 突然間, 心境澄明了, 釋懷了.
擔心也是無用, 儘管交托給天父吧!!
世界這樣大, 這麼多人需要福音, 我卻封閉自己在框框裡亂兜圈. ...枉為人.
...當然還得多謝一些"戰友" 在背後的禱告; 我知道我在Cowgary 走過的每一步路, 都有你們的禱告托住. =)

但那等候耶和華的, 必從新得力, 他們必如鷹展翅上騰, 他們奔跑卻不困倦, 行走卻不疲乏.
Tonight, I truly felt the presence of God, and I've been lifted by Him.
God surely answers prayers. Just cast our cares upon Him.

今晚E0 都有份分享. 一向MA 都話覺得佢似BBB, 今晚聽著佢分享仲覺得似添啊!!
Oh, how I miss my Bean.

小組分享祈禱的時候, 忍唔住滴左幾滴眼淚; 其實都唔駛咁激動嘅. ~_~"
俾D 組員們知道我又感性又文靜又斯文添... XD
謝謝護士小姐的分享 - 像耶和華帶以色列人過紅海一樣, 我們以為神將我們帶到絕處絕路當中嗎? 其實神一早已經為我們開路.

復興的一夜.
...其實我都害怕過左今晚之後, 到聽日我又再次無能力去面對; 不過, in God I trust.

Song of the Day:
"Cry in My Heart" ~ Starfield
There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper

Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You)

For what do I have
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life
Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter of my head
Lifter of this head
Amen.

Blah 突破 Blah 離場

FishLamb is 自動離場.

午飯時間有突破, 行左過去Deerfoot Mall 一趟 - 之前個幾禮拜一直都只係留喺自己張檯度食麵包, 無出去見過世面架.
原來行去對面真係一D 都唔遠; eh, 梗係啦, 都只不過係過條馬路嗟, 不過條馬路都幾闊架! 好似起碼有成6 線行車!
其實去左個mall 度, 主要都係去Looney Store 買D 文具嗟, 唔通真係有時間shopping 咩.
嘩, 點知行番去公司果程先慘, 突然間勁大風勁凍!! @_@" 所以話呢, 唔駛搭車去downtown 番工, 真係天父特別恩待我架!! =)

又skip 左排球night... 從何時起連排球都吸引唔到我了?
同MA 又去左Chianti, mussels 好食. ...不過我估下次應該唔駛帶妳去食喇.
兩個人才是食左$20, 都算抵啦~ 唉, 好窮啊!
[其實妳知我會帶妳去的...]

終於打破沉默; 不過又有乜用呢...
事實係事實, 始終都係要去面對的.
但我, 仍然希望選擇繼續逃避吧. =/
I don't wanna think of it no more...
The fact that I declare I'm staying away from that, will it make your life easier?

淚如泉湧, 很心酸.
"愛. 忘記" 尾二的那句, 沒有好好記住嗎?
化作石頭, 也是不得已.

謝謝BBB 的電話... 在一片灰暗中, you gave me the laugh of the week!! XD
放心, will pray for you guyS.

Joke of the Day (by 牛):
"除番hourly rate 你直情高人工過我啦!"
...喂, 唔好玩我啦老細!! XD

Song of the Day:
"Where Did You Go" ~ Jets Overhead
Where did you go? I don't want to know.
Where did you go? I don't want to know.
Where did you go? I don't want to know.
No, I don't want to know...

好歌獻給你 of the Day:
"失樂園" ~ 草蜢
結果我共你
仍然逃不過　被圍攻　被捨棄
愛得驚天動地　總算運氣
無論褒貶尊與卑

愛可有定理
談情誰講理　越無理　越淒美
就算飛天遁地　萬年千里
亦決定要共你一起

苦戀註定難　我已經習慣
沿途承受不留情的雙眼
請給我負擔　叫世上人間
平凡情侶為你共我轟烈汗顏

苦戀這樣難　我卻這樣貪
途人凝望中　寂靜的稱讚
請給我負擔　叫世上人間
惶惶情侶　在美麗與悲哀之間
留一線空間

已經愛定你
流亡情海裡　沒陽光　沒空氣
再多險境絕地　視而不理
任世俗繼續看不起

苦戀註定難　我卻這樣貪
綿綿情話中淡淡的感嘆
喜歡這負擔　看冷酷人間
何年何世　為你共我苦戀驚嘆
為戀愛平反
=/

Blah 思前 Blah 想後

FishLamb is 思前想後.

尋日放完一日假, 今日好似真係recharged 了少許.
不過, 訓左7 個鐘頭都好似唔係好夠呢.

番工, 無甚進展, 又係做埋D 無畏謂嘅野. =/
...well, 我會耐心等待的.
唔記得左講公司內部有用個類似MSN 的東西, 當然只有內部人員先可以add to list 啦.
想起Miss 都有同我講過佢以前公司都有依個"裝置". 不過可惜我無相熟的同事可以chat 囉.
你話如果以前VCH 有依個設備幾好呢!

帶左D 文具番公司用, 最重要的是帶左那隻所謂識跳tap dance 的Wall-E 番去.
Well, 就算佢實質上唔識跳tap dance 都好, 我都一樣咁愛佢的.真係有同事拎嚟玩架! =)
加埋個Wall-E wallpaper, 番工即刻開心好多! Wall-E 望住Eva 個樣真係痴情到爆~ :D

放工之後又去左Superstore... 原來佢地有得賣"Enchanted" 的DVD, $25 左右; 早知尋日唔好咁衝動上網買啦. =/ ...不過, 為搏小朋友一笑, 通常我都比較唔理智的.
仲有以$10 超荀價買左隻PS2 的排球game - 嘩, 好似好耐無見過有排球game 出現喇!! =)

MA 好乖, 今晚負責做大廚, 我做幫廚; 依個配搭似乎都幾好丫, D 野食比較入得口. 或者煮野食的天份都同家庭背景有關?
那二百幾蚊的飯煲終於剪綵了!
丫, 不過點解我有幫手煮, 但無人幫我洗碗嘅呢? :p

過了很清靜的一日; 還是過份清靜了?
那邊廂, 戰況大概很激烈吧?
I'm out...

Song of the Day:
"安靜" ~ 周杰倫

Blah 放假 Blah Heartache

FishLamb is ......

很休閒的Rememberance Day 假期, 雖然唔係訓左好多, 因為俾人搞醒左. :p

這沒有人工的一天假... 好似最初的時候在VCH 做casual 一樣.
無聊得可以, 拎左"青春火花" 出嚟睇, 見到以前也曾同HYS vball team 一齊去的訓練營, 很令人懷念.

兩餐都喺屋企食, 黐家& 節儉得可以.
MA 整牛排又真係幾得喎...
不過下次應該輪到你整牛腩or 蒜蓉蝦or 煲粥.

終於輪到MAM 病倒了, get well soon.
大概真的需要好好休息一下了.

魚欲無言... 寧願化作石頭魚, 不理不聞不問.
然後始終一天, I'll be happy with anything happens.
Hope for the best, prepare for the worst.
我想我準備好的了.
...Heartache 可以搵醫生仔治理嗎??

永遠記得真相大白的那種心寒感.

Songs of the Day:
"真相" ~ 陳奕迅 x "Torn" ~ Natalie Imbruglia

Blah Recap Blah Random

FishLamb is 大傷風. =/

Some weekend recaps:
Nov 8, Saturday -
*** 豆豆生日快樂!! 禮物剛剛好在正日寄到, 真好. All of a sudden I miss the candies that I gave you on birthday some N years ago... Anyway, all the BEST~~ :D
*** 病, 無去到打籃球, 但係鼓手K 有去, 哎呀, miss 左無得睇佢打添!! =/
*** 醫生仔夫婦過嚟玩Rock Band, 不過都只係玩左一陣. 之後睇左佢地的結婚DVD, 然後又彈下結他唱下歌, 開心! Then I miss playing in Worship Team...
*** 嘗試用Mr. Snowy 教Ms Sheffy 教Ms Fishy 的方法整牛腩; 結果, 難食丫(都唔知點解). XP *失敗*
Well, I'M SORRY THAT I CAN'T COOK; 不過都唔駛帶著埋怨的眼神望我嘅. Daaaable sad 丫.

Nov 9, Sunday -
*** 掙扎想唔番崇拜, 不過經MA 的鼓勵之下, 乖乖地一齊番午堂.
*** 團友仔發起一齊嚟玩Rock Band, 雖然我很病而MA 亦很累, 不過難得佢地發起先, 所以都OK 啦! :)
*** 第一次整蒜蓉蝦, 出奇地得! 嘩哈哈~~ So proud of myself, 無師自通. :p 正所謂"有煮未為輸"!
*** 第一次吃Domino Pizza, 又抵食又好食~
*** Guess people are addicted to Rock Band, and guess we should have "Rock Band Night" every weekend!

...So here comes my 2nd week of work @ Safeway. 仲記得上個禮拜我是如何的緊張, 如何的訓得唔好; 轉眼間, 又過左. :)
Monday, store bags come, 成朝就喺度拆袋, 悶丫.
不過我覺得自己好就好在, 雖然有時都會覺得點解堂堂CGA student 要喺度影印or 執頭執尾, 但無論如何我最後都仍然想將D 野做好佢嘅... Attitude 都算OK 架.
...唉, 到幾時我先真正知道自己真正要做乜D 呢?? That kinda bothers me...

Email, 仍然收唔到external emails 啦. 老細今日又無番. 點架?!
大部份同事都繼續好hea, 又早走又盛. 點架...
原來去caf 拎熱水係唔駛收錢的, good!
番工的時候勁病, 勁包雲吞, 鼻& 喉嚨一帶勁辛苦, 而且最可怕的事情發生了 - 又生cold sore (yes, SSC 口中的STD...) 喇!! =((( 喪SAD.

番工的路程上唔覺得特別少車, 雖然理論上好多人都會請埋今日假.
不過放工的時候就真係明顯得好少車, 好快就去到Superstore shopping.
意外收穫: Wall-E beanie!!! :) Ah chur, 早知唔駛上網買啦. :p

幾時先會接電話啊?? =/

兩年前的Remembrance Day 去Jetsy 屋企打邊爐.
那訓完午覺, 朦朦朧朧走去買Budweiser & Vodka 然後去Jetsy 屋企的我.
那同朋友食完飯, 為左游乾水趕去Jetsy 屋企的妳.
And then I missed the party twice in a row.
希望大家玩得開心.
I miss the party, but the crowd won't miss me....so freaking good-looking ah; though, not quite yet~ :)

不用灰心... 在career 路上需要兜兜轉轉的又豈止你一個?
總之努力做好本份啦~ :) 奸爸爹!

Randoms...
*** 都算後知後覺喇, 前幾日先realized Wall-E 係黃色, Eva 係白色呢!
That's so us ah... :D
*** 終於知道點解我中意Wall-E 比之前睇過的Disney 卡通更甚(like "Finding Nemo", "The Incredibles", "Monsters Inc."). PYZK 話因為之前果幾套我都無一個好中意的character 喎.
*** The only one thing that I don't like about At 17: 唔好成日話人地"唔識依首英文歌" / "未聽過果首英文歌" etc 好唔好?? o_O" 這未免太睇不起人了. :p
*** "Viva La Vida" 好聽 - 不過唔好諗住你係聽緊曾經唱"Yellow" or "In My Place" 的那隊Coldplay.
*** 繼之前Ford 出過"Taurus" 之後, 而家Hyundai 又出"Genesis"; 嘩, Miss, 好勁嗟~~ :D

Song of the Day:
"我自問" ~ 古巨基
我自問了解我為人
心思仔細　才有幸跟妳蜜運
憑好心專心真心小心愛到妳多放任
若是努力善良難再吸引
哈哈, "說句笑亦能講錯", 好句好句.