繼續無甚進展, 搞到我士氣有點低落, 仲撞正SPV 不在, 成日都好似無乜心機做野咁. 一早番到去又入左女波士office 傾野; 其實我都仲有少少怕佢的.

病到死, 咁嘅貓樣番HK, 死梗.

謝謝Sharon 的午餐.

謝謝龍爺的教誨, 我等定必銘記於心.

不怕被人投訴製造噪音咁去練saxophone, 吹唔到, 吹唔好, 到時實失禮自己失禮葉豆. *怕*

Song of the Day:
"運" ~ 側田
當 好景不再 我們來聽聽
你到底出聲打氣 還是只懂得怨命
我相信際遇如一面鏡
用笑代替哭聲 霉運才能撥正

一息間充滿困難 何必驚跌進海
驚險之際 前面有某座潛艇
沿路定有獎等認領
情願坐著怨幾聲 還是努力搏取拍掌聲

怎麼叫運 視乎你心理
捱盡黑夜便可看得到晨曦
極運滯日子都不要忘記
還在呼吸心跳 我未被遺棄

撐到底 奮鬥心不死
渡過低潮 我先見到熱潮
成熟了 明白了 才悟到了命途的奧妙

這刻充滿困難 何必驚跌進海
驚險之際 前面會有某座潛艇
沿路定有獎等我去領
結果不得要領 我都可給我喝采聲
終於打開了黃Mon 送俾我嘅側田新碟.
依首, 中晒我依排個mood.

滿城風雨, 唯恐天下不亂.
正所謂, "己所不欲, 勿施於人", 我都唔知點好.
兜兜轉轉, 最後究竟會搞成點?
唉... I'm utterly fed up.
以為自己好型好醒, 點知又出爾反爾, 很樣衰.

Nice little gathering, nice fatty desserts, nice prayer time; 預祝公主生日快樂!

Song of the Day:
"九因歌" ~ Juno
總是因為一點點不可配合 看快樂消失
遺憾至今 期待至今
最後忘記幸福沒有因

照鏡發現自己塊面勁脹勁肥, shoot. 仲有幾日咋播?!

Ok, I feel extremely bad today. In fact, I felt sick when I got up: headache & sore throat. Was about to throw up when I was driving to work, managed to hold it back though. Worked on 4th floor today, well, good for me that I could get away from the stinky 2nd floor. 成朝頭重重咁一邊做野, 一邊仔細咁諗究竟我嘅去向如何:

Choice 1: 申請Collections 份工, which I don't like & I don't think I'm capable. The patients are like, "The Police sent me to the hospital and I didn't ask for the treatment, so I'm not gonna pay for it." So, though this seems to be the BEST remedy for everyone in my office, it's not that appealing to me.

Choice 2: 認命見住其他Casuals 上晒岸而自己就做番Casual, 求其呃飯食度日. 但咁樣其實我就可以認認真真開始讀CGA.

Choice 3: 比Choice 2 更認真, 實行"劈炮" 唔撈, 專心讀書算數.

個人嚟講, 我覺得Choice 2 最為可行& 吸引, 但係始終有個心理障礙: 好唔甘心兜兜轉轉點解最後會係元老級嘅我"OUT!" 左. Bear with me...: S*H*I*T!!! 唔開心係, 我再一次確認我條命有幾黑仔. I really can't understand. Lord, help me.

之前離開Sessional Billing 個position 的時候, 唔知醜地叫VCMHS 嘅Christina 幫我留意下有無job openings. 剛剛好今日就收到佢forwarded 左一個posting 俾我(though she didn't know what happened to me), 不過果份job 個requirement 好高, definitely not for me.
Christina: "It's sad to hear you lost your permanent position but I'm sure you will get a permanent one very soon (given you're so good + helpful in your previous position)."
可能比較自負一點, 但我總覺得自己有少少遇人不淑, 唔係, 係懷才不遇. Seriously, I've got quite positive comments on my previous positionS, yet, 一份好工/ 穩定嘅工仍然與我無緣. 我覺得咁樣先至最苦最無奈...

Oh, 多謝牛牛sent 俾我的posting as well.

Lunch 破紀錄的細食, 同Emily 去Bread Garden 買左個muffin, 最後只係食左幾啖就食唔落. 我估我真係好愁. 夜晚補習的時候, 我勁喉嚨痛, 又唔開心, Ryan 仔又勁唔聽話, 我差少少就喊左出嚟囉! :'( I think I really need a break.

Song of the Day:
"懶" ~ hocc
加一把勁沒有結果
或者應該懶惰
... and that ALWAYS applies to me, ALWAYS.

Life gives me lemons, always.

朝早聽到收音機話Lougheed 延伸到Broadway 總共有兩段路封左, 所以我決定行Hastings. 結果用左整整一個鐘頭先番到公司; HATE IT!!

番到公司, 坐低左一陣, 收到Cindy C 嘅email, 話"Ms. 笑裡" 會去做番佢份舊工(= 我而家份工), 所以唔知我會點. 初初我都覺得無乜所謂, 覺得只係佢放棄左份so-called 高級D 嘅工, 做番R9, 然後我又被人moved around 咁嗟! 過左一陣, 女波士過嚟叫我入去佢office 傾野, 我都不以為意, 暗地慶幸好在Cindy 同我備左案, rather than 我唔知發生乜事咁被人召左入去. 點知, 女波士話"Ms. 笑裡" 係可以跟Union 嘅規例, within 3 個月裡面選擇番去之前份工, 而本來接左佢份工果個人(= ME) 就要回復番之前嘅status. 簡單D 講, 我被人由PERMANENT "鄧" 番落CASUAL. 簡直有如被人宣判了死刑一樣. 重點感受:

1. Yes, again, my bitter life. 如果我想喊, 唔係因為無左依份甚麼甚麼MSP Billing 嘅工; 而係, out of 成個office 咁多個(= 4, 5 個) 上左岸嘅Casuals, 我係最最最早開始做果個囉! 結果, 默默付出了年半, 我唔係第一個上岸做Permanent, 卻係第一個被人推番落海! 有無咁黑仔啊?! HUH?! 老實講, 就算Union 有例, 但係有幾多人升左職之後會無啦啦要求番去之前份工? 而又點解會係"佢"?! 點解搵著我嚟搞?! 點解佢地有幾個人做左幾個月就穩穩陣陣坐正Permanent 嘅位; 而我, 年半之後結果係番番去原位?! 我都有阿媽生架! 我都有勤力過架! :(

2. 昌媽is my 2nd 剋星; 如果成個chain involves 多幾個人, 係咪佢賠啊?! 痴線. And now I know why she was so 好笑容yesterday; 原來已經一腳將我伸左去老遠我都未知. 第二次喇! 有無D 咁嘅人啊?!

3. 年半以來Union 有保障過我嗎? 果個so-called Factory Worker 連續兩年加薪, 幅度超過50% 啊! Not to mention the decent, sweet OT pay and 100% chiropractor coverage, & free lunch & free parking & LIGHT workload! 我交左年半union dues 之後得到嘅係原地轉左10 個圈啊!!!

吃了有史以來最難食的Tuna Sub 做lunch; 是我的口太苦嗎? 臨出去食lunch 唔知點解"營" 住出面係陰天, 點知原來出面陽光普照... 原來世界週圍依然放晴, 只係我心裡面係陰天. 苦, 好苦. And guess what, on such a day for me, somebody else is making decent OT pay for no reasons, at a time like this in the year!

I thought I would have dedicated more lines to my meeting with Kelly; yet, I ain't in the mood. Anyway, it's such a pleasure to see you, after 16 years!! And it's kinda surprising that we could actually recognize each other! You speak such good Cantonese; I was kinda scared that I would need to speak English for the whole night. It's nice to realize we've so many things in common, though you are a crazy PhD student gal while I'm a dumb kid. Let's keep in touch.

我估我D 小學同學開始懷疑點解以前會係我依條廢柴考第一而唔係佢地=_=". 邊個知道點解記住話我知.

Song of the Day:
"苦" ~ 苦榮 x 小苦妹

**Miss 生日快樂**
祝願所有母親母親節快樂.

夢見某人突然升職做左Senior Engineer, 驚唔驚?! 仲要搬左去一個超級先進, 高到好似喺天空裡面咁嘅office 添! *CRAZY* 我估我太大壓力...

有點無聊的過了一日. 睇左少少林狗talk show, 可能因為我唔係佢嘅忠實fan, 所以我無梁星or Nenson 覺得咁吸引, 雖則我都佩服佢扮野/ 扮聲的才華. :p

In less then 1 week I'll be in HK... Kinda scared. Ok, let's not waste time & get all my stuff done!!

Song of the Day:
"親親我好嗎?" ~ 古巨基