跟低落的情緒肉搏了一晚, 今日終於逃出生天. 好天氣, 好心情, thanks God. 希望我的好隊友都可以盡快逃出生天; pray for you.

尋晚2am - 4am 的時間最難捱 - 被電話喚醒了卻又很快被遺棄, 然後又訓唔著, 個心又lar 住lar 住... x_x" 唉, 都唔知做乜. Over-reacted, I guess.

別忘了要謝謝D 人(真係Deakin) 尋晚團契之後邀請我今日同佢地去打bowling (今次應該唔係5 pin bowling 喇掛?). 雖然我因為要去AWANA 而去唔到, 但好感動終於第一次被邀請去團友仔私底下搞的活動. Oh, loner.

唉, 都話如果角色互換的話, 你真係會嘔血的. 不過都衷心多謝你陪我坐星巴克一齊做野; 都話咯, 通常就只有PYZ Kid 會咁樣陪我. 都唔知點解我成日都唔能夠專心做野, whereas 坐喺我隔嚟的你憑藉80 wpm 的特異功能, 三兩下手勢就已經搞掂一份功課. I hate myself for that; 而你, 就真係一個叻人嚟架. Thanks for your prayer - 好似都未試過有人無啦啦喺公眾地方為我禱告, it meant a lot to me (and it did run well~). 究竟喺天父面前你應該點樣稱呼我呢? :)

Sorry, 搞到你遲晒到; I really felt so bad. :( 仲應該同Elim 講SORRY 添! PTP 到呢...

又到了一年一度的花見:

Song of the Day:
"同聲同氣" ~ At 17
OMG... 一定要睇個MV:
http://www.peoplemountainpeoplesea.com/at17/index.htm
...喪愛Ellen!! (Sorry, 但真係忍唔住要over & over again 表白心跡! 哈哈! :p)
You know, it's amazing to see how she has changed over the years (但係我都仍然好愛佢)~

Friday - 不明文的便服日, 著左YSL 嫌太大的fcuk jacket 番工. So, Adidas vs fcuk, 一件太細一件太大, 所以最後雙雙被主人遺棄, 被寄託於so-called 更合身的人選. 但其實我今日有少少覺得, 果兩件衫個size 似乎係差無幾嘅囉. -_-" I'm grateful though.

尋日都唔記得講, 嘩, 姐仔到暈~ @_@" 拿, 無貶義架, don't take me wrong.

結果聽日唔駛番工... 其實我寧願要番囉! D 野都唔會做得切嘅! 而且我真係好驚星期一番到去發現天下大亂; 唉, 死梗. x_x"

某人自己列晒番工以來獲得的"荀野", 然後拋低一句, "你睇我好, 我睇你好". Huh? 擺明點睇/ 用邊隻眼睇都係你好喎? 講緊乜啊...? Oh no, got so pissed again... 已經好耐無試過喇. I guess today is not my day; nothing seems right.

6888 分鐘. 直情係蝕俾你.

Drew 哥哥又令我哭笑不得. 15+ 分鐘的soliloquy, 真係唔係個個都做到架!

喪玩星期五. 週五週六, 唔玩唔舒服?

又唔係人地邊個, 關你乜事嗟? :p

Crossed my mind: Just because PYZ is PYZ, many things that shouldn't have happened, happened. There must be something wrong with my characters / behaviors. 係我唔經大腦, 不顧後果? 自己都唔知自己做緊乜, 同時間自己又唔理自己究竟做緊乜?

...So how's this? A 0% understandability blog post?

Song of the Day:
"小心易碎" ~ 王菀之
本來黃昏的時候決定揀At 17 嘅歌做Song of the Day. 點知到而家寫完成篇post 先發覺原來個mood crappy 得咁交關; 算吧, 唔應該ruin At 17 嘅歌.

阿Guil 真係"細心同事" - 今日隔嚟位同Laura 姐講緊唔知點整"peanut butter french toast", 話搵唔到recipe 又盛. 點知過左一陣, 阿Guil 拎住一堆print-out 俾隔嚟位, 問, "Are you looking for these?" 原來佢特登即刻走去google it 囉! @_@" 我相信佢係一個好男人嚟嘅.

隔嚟位無啦啦主動同我講Alan (i.e. 佢老公) 辭左職; 哈哈, 令我有少少覺得被重視. 話說回來, 佢兩夫婦喺VCHA 都已經做左咁多年, 但Alan 都毅然離開, 勇氣實在可嘉! 我都應該要好好學習.

期待了8 hrs, 冤氣到呢! 仍然係pizza dinner, 但我真係覺得好好食啊! :) Many 型人 @JJ Beans, 仲見到有個男人著住件同我果件eagle pattern 冷衫差唔多樣嘅衫呢.

Jetsy 著Khaki 褲都可以打波打得咁勁, 真係技驚4 座. 勁到呢... Rock! Rock!! Rock!!!

Over & over again, 仍然好憎自己唔識得點去調整心理狀況. *SAD* 好怕自己打得唔好, 越怕就越介懷, 越介懷就越打得差, 越打得差就越放唔開... 惡性循環, 泥足深陷. 我要學識點去enjoy the game, rather than 追求表現. 不過, 打得唔好, 還是說不過去的. Sorry team! =( 有排都無得同你同場打波喇...

估唔到仲有第二隊嘈過我地!! 無左Vela, 我地真係實力大減 - 就聲量來說.

次次從Tupper 去Downtown 的路上都有事發生架喎~ 嘻嘻~ PTP 到呢... 第二次去日本甜品店, 上一次係Sin-E 番嚟嘅時候去的. 希望對於好耐無去過的YSL 嚟講, 當你第日recall 今晚的時候, 會係good experience - 就你的心理狀況來說.

嘩, 滿分喎~ 勁喎~ 神真係縱容你架播! =) See, 咁panic 做乜??

Highlights of the Week 就咁就過晒喇... 現在只有work & panic & stress & busyness. 唉, 愁上加愁. 所以你明白點解我唔肯走.

Song of the Day:
"思覺失調" ~ 劉浩龍
... that's me; I know wor. ~_~"

Broadway 夾Main 的路上, 遇不到. 喜歡你提出的"Bloggable" vs "Blogworthy"; 真係西人嚟架喎!

一番到公司check emails, 千呼萬喚始出來的Vela 果然無令我地失望! 雖然大家苦候多時, 但一睇到Vela 落足心機交足功課的reply, 真係覺得等幾耐都值得嘅! Vela 實在係one of a kind; 論搞笑, Vela 嘅功力深厚過我好多啊! XD "but we gotta WATCH OUT either we chose White or Black ...... the other ridiculous team will ask us to take off our clothes since our Tees are “too distracting” that they CAN’T SEE the volleyball in the game! hahhahaaahaaa.....!!!!!!!!!" (背景交代: 之前都Blog 過話有隊team 傻傻地架, 乜鬼都投訴一餐!) 搞到我喺個位度對住部電腦勁笑! You make my day~ 我估Vela 點解要4 點幾先訓, 係因為佢用左成個鐘嚟打依篇email 囉!

...其實team tee 如果係"反恐色" 應該都會幾靚. 哎呀...

今日連面對面見下老細個樣都無機會; she must hate me ("you must love me" ~ Madonna). ~_~"

1st highlight of the week, 可惜有人完全唔記得左原先有嘅mission 囉! 次次同你去Metro 都梗有兩件事情發生: 買野(unplanned) & getting worse by minute (expected); 宿命喎? 今日買左tee & 格仔短褲, 同YSL 一樣架! Oh well, sorry 囉, I should have picked a different color! :p
Dinner @ Sushi Garden, 都唔知道原來Hippo Cafe 個鋪位俾Sushi Garden 侵吞埋! 幸好係咁, 所以竟然唔駛等位 - 1st time ever! 台灣妹真的是"0爹" 嘅表表者; YSL 應該急call Ivana 嚟火拼台灣妹啦! 同一秒有感動order Seafood Salad 的蘇眉同學仔.

一對情侶相戀n 年後分手的理由: "其實我不嬲都勁憎渣車架喎! 不過你又唔識路又盛, 我對你好先成日車你咋喎!" ~_~" 其實真係唔需要對自己殘忍嚟對我好喎?

勁PT 勁PT 勁PT! 嘩哈哈~~

Song of the Day:
"神經痛" ~ hocc
錐心鑽骨是神經痛
... Kimmy 話, "錐心鑽骨是場經痛" XD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my beloved Ellen~~~ =) 真係愛你愛到呢~ 希望真係兩個月之後就見到你啦! 嘩哈!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to my parents~ 30 年喇...
... 仲有親愛的約書亞團導師Kester & Eliza 呢!
*熱鬧的一天* 好天到呢...

番到公司第一件事fax 左張reg course 的表格過去"Lan 記", 唉, 又破財! :( 其實都唔知咁遲仲reg 唔reg 到! 希望仲有位啦! Re-take 依科, 都唔知駛唔駛同D undergrad 爭位添呢? 唉, 用咁大舊$$ 去re-take MIS 1, 只可講句"人蠢無藥醫"!! Sad 爆.

今日番工番到嘔泡咁滯, 好多好悶嘅野要做, 對住部電腦真係有D 想嘔! x_x" 3/27, next fiscal year 已經逼近眉睫... 想喊. 我今日真係有work hard 喎, 識做啦?! 嘻嘻~

謝謝你帶"藍他卡" 去presentation, 等佢有機會見下世面喎! 雖然你事前無問過Silly Trinity (though you claimed that you asked PYZ Kid, I confirmed with her and she said you didn't - 又講大話?), 不過其實係我地嘅榮幸嚟嘅! 唔帶"藍他卡" 露一露面, 又點知原來我同Joseph 同學真係夾得咁交關?! Zwan, stickers, Spongebob... 種種跡象似乎暗示我同佢真係應該會一會面! 哈哈! 一下唔覺意可能仲有機會做埋蘇眉同學添呢! ... Eh, 其實係咪我地兩個一廂情願, 完全無諗過Joseph 同學嘅感受呢? ?_?

See, 話咁快又過左! 頂住呀, 撐埋落去!

熱切期待明天和後天! ... 唔係喎, 都話左唔應該有所期盼咯! :p

Song of the Day:
"明天" ~ 陳曉東

忙到癲的星期一, 為我的"死亡之週" 揭開序幕... x_x" Prayers needed!! ...不過忙有忙好, 時間過得好快, 霎眼又到lunch time, 霎眼又放工. 時間過得快唔係唔好 - 只要讓我有足夠時間去完成我要完成嘅野. -_-" 證實我嘅理論其實都有D 道理架: 一定會發生嘅野其實係唔需要驚; 驚嘅係, 唔知會發生乜野事. 我都唔知究竟我year end 其實會有D 乜野特別任務, 所以好怕!

今日又有週期性語言能力失調, 講唔到英文. =(

哈哈, 3 個字比起2 個字更難啟齒嗎? 仲係抽唔到雙魚Pooh, 明玩野.

無意中想起幾個我曾經瘋狂靠近的好朋友: Conny, Rocky (女仔來的 - 最無意想起的一個), 海瑤, 卡文仔... 200,000 個"唉". 究竟原因何在? 太無ground? Close 得太不切實際(喪寫信, 喪講電話, 喪見面, 喪留言)? At one point, we were insanely sacrificing for each other, attached to each other. And then... what? Can't even recall if there was a sharp turning point, or just deteriorated over time? 很可惜. 其實我很怕, 你明白嗎?

Question of the Day:
究竟中意小肥羊多D 定中意魚羊多D 呢?

Song of the Day:
"A Beautiful Lie" ~ 30 Seconds to Mars
嘈到呢...

尋日實在累得不得了, 尋晚諗住訓一陣, 然後起身預備: 1. Titus committee 開會嘅野; 2. 嚟緊星期五晚團契小組discussion 嘅materials; 3. 嚟緊星期六晚AWANA 的Bible message. 結果, 估到估到, 狂數3 比0 - 無一樣野做到. 又照燈照左成晚(i.e. 開住燈訓), 第二日又變左黑面神. 扎醒的一剎那真係好驚, 好panic! So many things to be done, 卻又一樣野都未掂過. 一諗到開完Titus 職員會之後又要每個月負責1 至2 個programs, 仲加panic. ~_~"

訓到8am, 心意已決, 決定唔番主日學去預備小組討論的materials, such that I can distribute them to the group leaders today. 唉, 終於打破了自己今個term 的全到紀錄! 愁! 遙遠的Knight 宣, 也有人同我一樣"齊來同skip 主日學"; 或許我地應該慶幸唔係番同一間教會? 如果唔係, 會唔會俾對方嘅壞影響多過好影響呢?

Skip 堂的壞學生, 好嘆咁去Chevron 買左cinnamon stick (好味!) & coffee 做早餐, 然後匿左喺黃小寶裡面做野. 我發覺我真係只要唔係喺屋企裡面, 就乜野地方都可以做到野囉! 咁樣係咪可以大條道理唔黐家? -_-"

自從上個禮拜開始, 因著projector "被提", 崇拜的powerpoint 控制員(i.e. me, with Nenson / JonJon 客串) 要坐到禮堂最後排 - 阿牛話係"後排攻擊"! :) 數數手指, 幾年來都係坐最前果排, 突然要坐到最後真係有D 唔慣, 好似好難集中精神, 又怕見唔到領詩員的signals. Well, 任何野都需要適應嘅.

聽道之後自己的反思:
1. 以色列人害怕歌利亞, 拖延了40 天仍未有行動, 在聖經裡面的篇幅佔了幾十節. 到大衛出場, 他靠著神迎戰歌利亞, 才短短幾節經文(1 Samuel 17:48-51), 簡單描述幾個動作, 大衛就輕易戰勝歌利亞. 一眾procrastinate 的表表者, 拖延真的不是辦法; 靠著神, 讓祂介入, 問題其實很快就能得到解決. With God, impossible is nothing.

2. 大衛所以能夠戰勝歌利亞, 其實不是真的靠著那塊石子, 而是他背後的神. 神就藉著那小小的石子, 藉著大衛的手, 讓以色列人得勝. 我們的手所能做到的其實很微小, 但神自會使用及成全.

無驚無險, 職員會順利完成, thanks God. 雖然大家開會之前都話乜野ideas 都諗唔到, 但係集合眾人的力, we really got something done - quite efficiently! :) Review 之前一季的programs, got some good feedbacks; 最開心都係團友仔有野學到! ...外面天氣咁好, 我地卻要困喺屋裡面開會, 慘爆!

Playoff 都唔出去睇就正衰仔啦, 係咪? 不過唔好以為我下次話"唔去唔去" 最後又會出現喎, no guarantee~ 哈! ...很佩服Sheffy 又遲到又勁趕咁去到, 但係連熱身都唔駛就可以即刻進入狀態! 唉, 算啦, 我估有些才能真係天生嘅, "nice setter"! 羨慕唔得咁多. 雖然輸了, 但唔緊要啊, 最好的尚未來臨~ 2nd match 悶到死, 又俾人地把聲煩死; Sesame Street 配音員?

Too much of a VIP, too much of a nobody. 大家對你的重視, 犧牲了唔知邊個嘅男彭彭. 彭彭都係慘果D 嚟架喇.

Outcome <<< 期望; guess I shouldn't label / assume anything like "highlight of the week" anymore, 不切實際.

Thanks for your ride; don't know how to say goodbye?

Song of the Day:
"Weekend" ~ Black Box Recorder