照鏡發現自己塊面勁脹勁肥, shoot. 仲有幾日咋播?!

Ok, I feel extremely bad today. In fact, I felt sick when I got up: headache & sore throat. Was about to throw up when I was driving to work, managed to hold it back though. Worked on 4th floor today, well, good for me that I could get away from the stinky 2nd floor. 成朝頭重重咁一邊做野, 一邊仔細咁諗究竟我嘅去向如何:

Choice 1: 申請Collections 份工, which I don't like & I don't think I'm capable. The patients are like, "The Police sent me to the hospital and I didn't ask for the treatment, so I'm not gonna pay for it." So, though this seems to be the BEST remedy for everyone in my office, it's not that appealing to me.

Choice 2: 認命見住其他Casuals 上晒岸而自己就做番Casual, 求其呃飯食度日. 但咁樣其實我就可以認認真真開始讀CGA.

Choice 3: 比Choice 2 更認真, 實行"劈炮" 唔撈, 專心讀書算數.

個人嚟講, 我覺得Choice 2 最為可行& 吸引, 但係始終有個心理障礙: 好唔甘心兜兜轉轉點解最後會係元老級嘅我"OUT!" 左. Bear with me...: S*H*I*T!!! 唔開心係, 我再一次確認我條命有幾黑仔. I really can't understand. Lord, help me.

之前離開Sessional Billing 個position 的時候, 唔知醜地叫VCMHS 嘅Christina 幫我留意下有無job openings. 剛剛好今日就收到佢forwarded 左一個posting 俾我(though she didn't know what happened to me), 不過果份job 個requirement 好高, definitely not for me.
Christina: "It's sad to hear you lost your permanent position but I'm sure you will get a permanent one very soon (given you're so good + helpful in your previous position)."
可能比較自負一點, 但我總覺得自己有少少遇人不淑, 唔係, 係懷才不遇. Seriously, I've got quite positive comments on my previous positionS, yet, 一份好工/ 穩定嘅工仍然與我無緣. 我覺得咁樣先至最苦最無奈...

Oh, 多謝牛牛sent 俾我的posting as well.

Lunch 破紀錄的細食, 同Emily 去Bread Garden 買左個muffin, 最後只係食左幾啖就食唔落. 我估我真係好愁. 夜晚補習的時候, 我勁喉嚨痛, 又唔開心, Ryan 仔又勁唔聽話, 我差少少就喊左出嚟囉! :'( I think I really need a break.

Song of the Day:
"懶" ~ hocc
加一把勁沒有結果
或者應該懶惰
... and that ALWAYS applies to me, ALWAYS.